Yet again I have been slacking....

It seems I am constantly asking myself where the time has gone....
constantly.
But there's nothing I can do but keep moving forward and try to keep up, or at least fake it a little better!

So what to tell you about.....
YES, I DID run the 1/2 marathon on January 15th!!!  See?!!

This was when I was almost finished, got a huge burst of energy when I saw my family there!  Almost done!!!

Right after finishing!!!  Surprisingly, I felt really good!

Anyways, the run was amazing and I can't wait to run many more, and do the whole marathon like I had planned!  But TBH, I know that a whole would have been entirely too much for a very first race ever!

What else....

Well we got to experience the first of our children taking the scissors to her hair!  Yep, I'm so not kidding....

See the loverly bangs she made???  Actually they didn't turn out that bad, but very short and, well I decided it was time for a change after she did this...... sooooo......

Now she has a little pixie cut:) 

Yes Amylia is growing a ton.... until I compare her to other kids her age and then I am reminded what a little sweet pea she is!  Crossing fingers she can brake the 30 pound mark for her 5th Birthday....

AJ?  Well he is never without excitement.....

In February, he really gave us a scare.  He came down with some strep infection that was a complication of Chicken Pox, he then gave me and Ashlynn Strep... and then to top it off, a complication arose from his infection.... he came down with vasculitis.  His legs got what looked like a rash on them, they were visibly swollen, and it started rising up his legs.  To top it off he was suddenly in so much pain that he couldn't walk.  I ended up taking him to Urgent Care to be told that it was vasculitis and that there was nothing that we could do and he could possibly be unable to walk for a month.  HOLY SHIT I totally had trouble coping with this and might have totally freaked out, er I mean I handled it so well (ok fine, I freaked out!).  It was scary as hell.... but luckily it only lasted a couple of days, and he was back to himself in no time! WHEW!!!  And here he is on Easter playing soccer with his cousin...

And finally, Ashlynn...

What can I say about this beautiful girl that amazes me every day?!  This girl is growing up too fast!!!

She is enjoying 7th grade and also butting heads with me.... *sigh*

And there we have it......

and hopefully I will be a good girl and blog a little more often...(I make no promises, but really how many of ya really care??? lol!! I kid, and I DO love all of you that are reading this, pinkie promise!)

xoxo-

me









Sense and sensibility

No, not like the Jane Austen story, but like the kind that I don't exercise nearly as often as I should.  As in, all to often I haz none of that there sense and sensibility, so I'm making an effort here to use some... this time at least!
So I told y'all awhile back that I was registered to run the marathon that is scheduled for next week.  I have been training (outside of my injury that took me out for almost 3 months!!), but it has been hanging over my head if I would be able to get the miles in that I need to do in order to be ready for the marathon.  I simply have not been able to log the miles.  I'm just not where I should be. 
So the time came to decide if I should reconsider racing in the marathon.  I have no doubt that I could do it, finish it, but I know at this point that the amount of walking that would take place is just so much more than I had imagined and that is a serious disappointment.  I have not stopped my training, and am not quitting, but I know that it is not wise to think that I am ready for a marathon. 
To be honest, it was going to be my first race ever.  I haven't been a runner for that long, and when I set my goal for the marathon, I really felt that it was an achievable goal.  Then I fell and hurt my knee.  I wanted to run so bad.  And I just....couldn't.  This sucked so incredibly badly.  But I healed and I still had time to train if I really pushed myself.  Or maybe I was delusional.
I have this habit of doing this sort of thing to myself.  I set goals that are a bit high.  Not that it is a bad thing to set high goals.  This is why I do it.  I aim high.  Go big or go home, dammit! Yeah, there is a history for me of setting goals that I am not able to reach.  My husband knows this about me.  I'm sure he expected it all along really, and I don't mean that in a bad way.  he just knows me well.  He knows I have big dreams and am too stubborn to realize when setting my goals that maybe I should start small.  Its true.  I mean, who decides they want to be a runner (with no real athletic history other than watching sports on television) and sets their first race goal of running a marathon?  Patty does, that's who.
After discussing my running history and training progress with my running friends and my husband, I have decided that the smart thing for me to do would be to set a more realistic and attainable goal of running the 1/2 marathon instead of the whole marathon.  I would be lying if I said that a small part of me is not completely disappointed in myself for having to change this goal.  But I'm just doing my best to ignore that bitch (inside of me) and focus on the fact that I should be proud that I am running, that I will run a 1/2 marathon.  This is a pretty big accomplishment for me, I need to remember this.
Next week, on January 15th, I will run my very first race, the PF Chang's Rock and Roll 1/2 marathon in Tempe Arizona.  I'm not concerned with the time it takes me.  The run is definitely something I can do, and I will have a first official race under my belt.  The first of many....