Monday, May 30, 2011

What do you see?

When you look in the mirror, what do you see?  I'll tell you what I see, please comment and tell me what your reflection is...
When I look in the mirror I see Joy.  Happiness.  Pain.  Sadness.  Hope.  Disappointment.  Strength.  Fear.  Resilience.  Weakness.  Experience.  Inadequacy. 

I see a girl, a woman, both young and old.
I see someone who is a disappointment to some, an inspiration to others.
I see someone who is dying to break out of her shell and be the woman she believes she was born to be.
I see someone who will not quit, will not give up.  Failure is not an option.  But, then again, failure is not only an option, but also a shitty reality.  How else do we learn if not for our failures?
I see someone who absolutely loathes her physical reflection, who hides from the camera because someday she will look the way she thinks she should look and THEN she will allow photos. 
When I look in the mirror, my reflection is actually a good 100-200 pounds more then I know that I am.  Will that ever go away, I wonder?  If I ever get my body the way I want it to be, will I actually see and appreciate who I am? 
I see someone who wants to make a difference in this world, but also someone who struggles and sometimes needs a helping hand herself.
I see someone who is fiercely independent, but who also needs to be held up and supported at times.
I see a leader.  No, I can't say I'm really a follower!  Although if I love you, I love you fiercely and will follow you to the edge of the earth, even if you don't want me to, in a non stalkerish (ok *maybe* in a stalkerish) sort of way.
I'm full of love, I love with loyalty, passion, and intensity.
I see a girl with piercings that would make many peoples' jaw drop (ok only 1 tattoo, so that won't count, lol!) 
A crazy and adventurous, yet conservative girl. 
Shy and outgoing all at the same time.

So now tell me, what do you see....

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